When I am awake: There is anger, hate, love, drowsiness
I am afraid of things to come and I am running but standing still
Now I am waiting: Yes, there are clouds.
Waiting, now, waiting, stop and feel the tug of war begin
Take me home to my sui side where I am falling, trailing and rising only to start over again

When I am asleep: There is creation, freedom, grasping for illusions
It’s a collapse of the balance. Swallowing dirt and spitting it out
I am forgotten. Yes, there is thunder.
Time. Questions. Tears. Nothing. The suffocating begins
Take me home to my sui side where I am moving, turning and changing only to start over again

Distortion as a friendly grin, calm as a deadly sin
Silence as a fight, no noise where I can hide
Despair wants to be my only friend, hope toils me till the end
Weakness pushes me back, no strength to hold my track

All within my head has to go away
Not a shred of a thought has to stay
The chapter is over, turn the page. It’s the sun.
But only an imagined and passive life goes on
And Jules said: “There seems no way for you to be. But before you decide to leave, come to me”

Disconnected, looking for myself
Waiting for death, but death within. Yes, there is rain. No need to rejoice.
So I decide to take the black to rise beyond this choice
Without an option to defy or deny
I am telling my story and say goodbye

Distortion as a friendly grin, calm as a deadly sin
Silence as a fight, no noise where I can hide
Despair wants to be my only friend, hope toils me till the end
Weakness pushes me back, no strength to hold my track

Had fear of pronouncing the ravage inside
Before I could greet you, you fade
The other time I couldn’t say goodbye
And we lost ourselves in the shade

The tug of war ends
I don't see anything, I hear and I feel nothing
But I remember. Yes, this is the earth.
Where he is resting to go home again.